This section of my blog is perhaps the most important to me, as it’s a constant challenge to keep up with my self-care while managing family life. After having my second child, my body went haywire where I had extreme postpartum anxiety and also developed Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis (really annoying but not even remotely life threatening autoimmune disease). If I don’t manage stress in some way, it will induce a flare up that causes a whole host of ills I’d rather not deal with on any occasion.
On this page I’ll mostly be posting accomplishments in self-care, goals, setbacks, etc. –again, primarily to keep holding myself accountable for what I do. Maybe something here can be helpful. Maybe a reader can stop by and leave a tip.
It’ll be like those penny containers at convenient stores.
July 28, 2019
Here is a reminder to myself and to whomever needs it: You’ve got to stop moving sometimes. It’s ok.
Slowing down is difficult for me–especially if I’m incredibly busy and focused on specific tasks. This past weekend and week I’ve been laser-focused on finding and hiring a babysitter for my kids, taking care of my children, and planning a big house project for the weekend.
As of tonight, I was still wired. I kept telling my husband I was going to write since that’s how I wind down, but I continued to find things to do. I needed to look for our tennis rackets, other missing sporting goods, and anything else I could think of that I hadn’t been able to find for the past year. It was ridiculous. I was in organization mode and could not slow down for anything. I knew I needed to stop and balance out the nonstop motion with some calmness and reflection. I knew that if I didn’t, I’d keep going until I burned myself out.
To sum up the matter, I can keep moving for the sake of productivity and self care since I find that organizing the world helps to comfort my anxiety. However, when I don’t stop to reflect and sort out the jumbled mess of thoughts that are in my head, it becomes more difficult to bring myself to a halt. Focusing becomes an even bigger challenge. Then I find myself avoiding reflection because I’m overwhelmed by it. So, while tidying up can be a form of self-care, too much can be detrimental.
Balance is apparently essential to everything.
July 6, 2019
Moments of peace have been finding their way to me this week, and I’ve been able to do yoga 2-3 times. Joining the yoga collective online has been an absolute godsend. Even when things got stressful and I felt like a flare up was imminent, I used breathing and short breaks of poses to try to lessen the pressure in my neck. (I’m not saying the flare up isn’t going to happen now, but I was at least able to breathe more easily.) I had an entire evening to myself on Friday night as my husband was out of town, where I sat on the couch, shopped, shopped, and indulged in wine and Mamma Mia: Here We Go Again. Since my older daughter had a sleepover at my parents’ house, I took a nap when the baby napped. It was glorious. Tonight I was even able to leave for a few hours to do a little shopping. I was supposed to write while out, but I had forgotten it was Sunday.
This week’s goal: yoga 2-3 times, dance class or at least 1 neighborhood walk, and nails!